Good Morning!!

Good morning everyone.
Had a nice sleep last night?
If ya, then good.
If no, say hell ya with me as we are in the same boat.

I suppose to have class now but I decided to skip.
I am totally tired after the several sleepless night.
Besides, this early morning, I have already looked through my notes that whatever will be teach by my tutor today I think I at least know what to do with it.
Anyway, for me, I think "study hard and a get a good job" is not my type.
I dont wanna wake up early morning everyday and rush for work, get paid and becoming the government slave by paying a huge amount of taxes.
What I think is "Study hard and get a good job" theory doesnt work in this world anymore.
Maybe it works for the past but not now.
Do you all know even doctor is struggling financially in these day??
I am looking forward a business, an investment that required a little knowledge of how the money works.
But of course, my studies still will not be negelected.
It's kinda important anyway, at least for my parents, that is.

It's already 8.30am, I suppose to be on my bed now.
You must be thinking, not going to class, then what the hell I am doing here and not go to bed.
Nah, it's just that when I decided to skip my class, my so called "sleepy" is not there anymore.
I guess at least my rebel part is functioning quite well.

Once again, Good Morning everyone.
Wish you all have a nice day.

When the cold and hot combined

I typed and I deleted it.
I typed it again and I deleted it again.
I know I have something to say.
I know I have something to ask.
I know I have something to write it here.
And I wonder how am I going to "re-decorate" it and "wrap" it nicely before presenting it.
I just don't want to create any trouble, any misunderstanding, especially not causing any sadness.

As I know, hurricane is formed by the combination of hot and cold air.
Hurricane messed up and destroyed anything wherever it goes and passed through.
And for human's feeling, the combination of hot and cold, it brings confusion.
Confusion messed up one's heart, making your day from worse to worst, brings you one of the worst feeling you ever had in life and you couldnt decide what's the next step or action you should take.
Scare of making the wrong decision, you will lost the thing you want forever.

Yesterday, I lied my head down onto the table, looking blankly at the wall.
I was not clearly knowing what's on my mind, what song am I listening to.
All I know, I was pretty down on that time.

I reach out one of my hand..
Trying to catch the light which forced itself in from the outside.
When everyone knows it's impossible to do so and so do I.

But somehow, I get to know that, there is no impossible as long as you try hard enough and never give up.
I guess there is some of the things that you just couldnt reach and get no matter how much effort you've put into it.
And by that time, give up could be the best choice you've got to make.

However, when the confusion sets in...
You will never know what will be the next step that you should take.
There will be too much "if" occur in my mind ..
Is that a sign ? Or..
Is this just a bump on the pathway? Or..
Is it the time to give up?
If ya, how ??
You just couldnt decide.

Sleepless... AGAIN?!!!

It's 7am when I am typing this!!
YES! I didnt get to sleep at all since last night.
The worst thing is I will be having my 3 hours class at 8am later.
DUH~ I wonder what is wrong with me.
I just cant get into sleep no matter how I forced myself.
At first I thought I was just hungry (I found myself have a habit of taking supper before I go to bed [I think that's why I am getting fatter zzzz]), but I did get off my bed and consume a big cup of milk and some CoCo Crunch.
Obviously, it didnt help at all.

ARHHHHHHHHH! SOMEBODY just come and smack my head off till I faint.
I just hope I wont be sleepy at class later.
You see, since the day I decide to take ACCA, I know I am gonna face a brand new level of education here and my aim for this semester is NOT to fail any of the subject.
And to achieve that, I need to stay focus in the class as much as I can.

Guess what...
Instead of looking ways to get me into sleep, I think I have to find ways to keep me awake now.
It's time for me to prepare to go for class. =(

Make Me STFU!

I think I said something wrong again.
I think I made something wrong again.
I think I thought something wrong once again.
~* long long sigh *~

I am really suck in advicing and making people feel better.
I only know how to made thing worse.
But the worst thing is, I only realise it when it was all too late.
And *poof*
Hmm...I guess I gained myself another months of ignorance or probably forever.
I really really should've just shut the fuck up when something happened.
I should not even talk, try or even think about it.

Since ignorance is falling on me, I guess I'm gonna be all alone again.

I always want to watch "Drag Me To Hell" since I watched the trailer while I was in Singapore.
And after the "I-dont-know-what-the-movie-is-about" Harry Porter, my desire to watch "Drag Me To Hell" is getting stronger.
Well, there is not even need to think how is the situation gonna me by the time I watched this movie.
At least I am sure it's not like what I had imagined on last Wednesday.

Broken part.

I know I am awake yet still lazy to open my both eyes.
Lazily dragging myself to reach for my handphone with my half opened eyes.
12.00pm.
How I wish the time is freezed and stopped at this moment because the next move had bring my feeling down to the lowest point.
I read something I shouldn't.
I knew something that I suppose not to know.

I should've known all these and expect for it.
I keep reminding myself not to think more than that because I know I am going to put myself in trouble if I do.
I thought I am ready for it.
And yet..It still brings me a great disappointment.
I couldnt reject as I know this is what I've been waiting for.

Such a good way to push me down from the hill.

I am not blaming anyone except myself.
I should've know all these is going to happen.
But why now?

Now, I wish it never come, rather than putting myself in the situation like this.
But why I still counldnt say no to you ?
Sigh..
I should've make my day through like the normal one.
Even though it is a meaningless one.
Humans always regret last heh?

I need my cigarette..

Somebody call 911!!!

LOL!!

Ok, I know I know, MIA from the blog for a long long time again.
It's just that recently, my time are so pack with something else.
My studies and MAPLE!! LOL!!
If you do read my blog, you should know how crazy I am with the Maple.
And!! When I say I am busy with my studies , it means I am back to Kuching AGAIN!
Sigh.
Honestly, I feel that I play Maple just to pass some boring times away but, once I start with it I always find myself play till the late at night. Hehe~
Cause you see, I don't really spend my time with Maple if I am in Sibu.
Anyway out the crap.

Somebody call 911!!!
Heard of this before ?
If you do, you should know what I mean.
IT'S ONE OF THE SEAN KINGSTON's SONG!
FIRE BURNING!
haha, I kinda like the song and I wonder why.
No! I didnt meet or see some hot ladies dancing around me.
NO no, it's even worse for you to think that, somewhere around me is burning, that's crap.
I just that I've fall in love with this song since I first heard it from the hitz.Fm

If you like this song as me do, yea! We are in the same gang here.
Here, I found this in youtube and decide to post the song here.
Hope you will like it.


P/S, Currently, I really need 911 to save me out of this boring-steaming-4-wall-sided-room. There's a probability that I might get to be one of the source of the fire disaster if I stay in here long enough. Dial for me please, anyone?? Haha

Reap Me, DEATH!!

GOSH GOSH GOSH!!!

15 hours from now, I will be having my F6 exam!!
And yet, I am still not in mood to do my revision yet!!
So, far I had just done doing half of all the topics!!

ARHHHH!!!!

I am so so so in trouble now!

This is what I feel now.

Erm, no, that's not me.
But what's the different? Zzzzz~

Grrr~~
Inside my mind is full of TAX TAX TAX and those stupid sections and Acts.
You see, I moved away my laptop from my table so that I will have more space for my notes while doing my revision.
On the other hand, I just thought that I can concentrate more on my revision if my lappie is not in front of me.
But HELL YA!! I finally realise that the power of attraction of my lappie is not wise to be underestimated!
May be moving it away from my sight wont do any help, perhaps I should leave it at Sibu next time??
Nah, KILL ME if I really do that.
I rather die. LOL!

Anyway, see this..

Look Ma, I am really doing my revision.
Those are the summaries of what I had revised so far.
Erm, ignore the Pepsi from KFC.
That's my today's lunch
No, I didnt waste my time to go to KFC to relax myself.
It's just that I had my lunch late and don't know what to eat, so, I went to KFC to have it take away.
WTF!! Fuck the KFC thingy.
I am in miserable and super-emo condition now.
So, Ma, dont say I didnt try my best. I DID, OK ??

Now, back to the notes...
*SOBS* =(