What's in my mind..

It has been 3 nights in a row I had almost the same dream.
It's kinda weird.
I dont feel like how I felt like before.
No sign of the increase of the heart rate.
Didnt wake up in shock.
And my pillow is still dry.
I probably have already get used to it.

It's too easy to illustrate how I spent my day yesterday.
Just imagine, a laptop, a pillow and the floor.
And my day was over until the sun rised and reminding me that it's time to go to bed.
LOL!
I slept at almost 7 today's morning and woke up around 1 in the afternoon.
Dont "wah" or "wow", it's kinda normal for me.
I just cant sleep like normal people do. I wonder why.

As for today, I went out to my college to collect my exam docket.
Then I drove around the city in my car for hours.
LOL!!!!
It's not that I am wasting the car's fuel.
Just that I dont feel like going back to the four-wall-steaming-room yet.

You know what, I start listening to the radio, I forgot since when.
Hitz.FM, MyFM, and Ai FM.
Maybe it's cause of I am getting sick of hearing the same songs over and over again.
Ok, these stations may be not playing the new songs everyday but..
At least some of them, I 've never heard it before and I like it.
It's kinda enjoyable what.

Today I stick myself with Ai FM.
I forgot what song it is but I know I am listening to every single lyric of that particular song and trying to apply it into my life.
Almost everyone do that what.
And there's no doubt that my mood went down to the lowest point.
And when it happens, almost everytime, she will appear in my mind.
It reminds me of the way she look at me at the very very last time I saw her.
The eyes, the face and the lips..
I will never have chance to tell her that I really miss her and I seriously know that.

However, you know what, I am learning.
Learning how to give up a thing.
In the past, I thought giving up is a bad thing.
I mean, it's an unnecesarry thing to be learnt in anyone's life.
But in the end I realize that, in real life, you need to learn to give up even though you dont like to do so.
And when I say learn, I mean you've to keep trying to do so.

So, today, when I was down, I smiled and told myself that, I am just tired.
You know , pressurized by the coming exam, sleepless night and the loneliness are what I am fighting in these days.
Then, I told myself not to think anymore.
So, I concentrate in driving and think of other things.
AND GUESS WHAT HAD COME TO MY MIND?
Maple and Restaurant City in facebook.
HAHAHAHA!!

GOSH, so so unfortunately, Restaurant City is under the mantainence now.
And I cant log into Maple, or else , I will be going to skip my revision again.
So, I come to here. LOL!!!

I guess that's for today.
Gonna start my revision.
I hate to study!!
URH~~!!!

My 21st Birthday Dinner

I suppose to post this earlier since it happened in last month but..
You know liongteck is always a lazy bug so, here it is now. LoL

My both sisters and I went back Sibu for Ching Ming's festival that time and they decided to celebrate my 21st birthday earlier since they wont be with me on the 25th of May.
So, they actually treat me a big dinner in Cafe Cafe (I've forgotten the exact date, sorry).
All I remember was, it's the last day before I came back here to Kuching for my hellish life again.

For now, I'll just let the pictures do the talking.
Before that, there's one other reason why I post this late.
This is because I'm still deciding either to post this blog or not.
I DONT LOOK GOOD IN ANY OF THE PICTURE TAKEN!!
I AM SO FAT!!
So, that's why =D.
Anyway, for now, enjoy my ugliness.

Our cousins and two of my sisters' friends were invited to the dinner as well.
Here, I am going to say that I'm sorry for coming late that night.
When I reached there, they had actually finished their meals and got to wait for me to finish mine. **paiseh**

Ok, forget about the small details like what we had eaten that night.
We move to the main event.
And here there are.

One of my cousin,WisWong, suddenly talked to me right after I finished my spaghetti.
Honestly, at the time, I had sensed something was not very right.
Why suddenly she would talk things about ACCA with me?
Then suddenly ...
Severals staffs in Cafe Cafe came up with a cake and my siblings begin to..

"Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to ba-liong-by-teck (they cant decide decide either to call me baby or liongteck, obviously, they didnt do any rehearsal)
HAHAHAHAHA (then they laughed)
HAPPY BIRHTDAY TO YOU"

What a b'day song.
BUT STILL, I love it XD.
What A Surprise!!!

TA DAH!!

My birthday cake!!!
Sense something is wrong??
Yeap, it should be 21st and not 21th. LoL

I made my wish which is still almost the same as last year.
But this year, I added some for my education part.



Cut my cake..



And I had my own piece of cake now ^^


I tell you what, this is going to be the best cake I ever had in this year.
I still have no idea who bought this cake and where is it came from but I had thought that it was from my sisters because.. (forget it) and the word "Bro.liongteck" on it. THANKS A LOT!!

Before I had my chance to really enjoy the cake.
Suddenly I felt something is not very very very right.
My cousins suddenly stay far away from me and laughed,
One of my sis' friend suddenly said "I had this before and that's the end of my day"
I turned my head left to see what are they looking at and ... WHAT THE HELL IS THAT??



My eyeballs were going to drop when I saw this then I stared back at my cousins.
They laughed and said "This is our tradition, everytime when they were someone's b'day, he or she gonna sip down this thing"
Then I was like, OMG!! A Flaming Lamborghini = the end of my night!!

But tradition is tradition, I respect that and plus, there is nowhere I can run also.
So we gathered around and watched how the "campfire" was set up.



Then a picture, before I sip down this thing.



Next thing to happen is ...


GLup! glup!
There was fire on it which cant be seen in the photo.


and GLUP!!
Then a greeny liquior was poured down to put off the fire before I finished everything in a time.
I felt like a dragon which almost breath out fire from the mouth.
It was so bloody hot and dry.
And my head started to feel dizzy after a few minutes.
I am not a good alcoholic, I seriously know that.

Then next thing I know was,
Cam-whoring time.
They really know how to choose the right time to cam-whore I tell you.


First is my 1st cousin, WisWong.

Later is my 2nd cousin, Hermes (sorry bout the blurry pic, that's the only picture I found in hundreds of them)


Then my 3rd cousin, Zankle.


After that is my 1st sister, CJ


Next is us, brothers and sisters.

Later I was sitting on my own chair eating my cake to keep my alcohol down, as they kept..
Cam-whoring







More photos












Then my pity brother, Andy was dragged inside as well.





They are evils!!
They dont stop just like this.
These just dont satisty them yet.
So they, came to me and dragged me out from my chair ..



And had pictures with them will I still in my dizziness.




This is the funny one.
See how red is my face? HOW UGLY I AM??!!

It's was one of the best b'day dinner in my life.
I wonder when was the last time I actually celebrated my b'day with my families.
It's really nice.
Well, thanks to my cousins and my sisters' friend who attended the dinner.
Especially my sisters,
This is one of the best gift I ever had.



I love you guys~

How I wonder the coming 25th of May is going to be.
Alone in Kuching with my hellish life?
OR
Back to Sibu gather with my friends?
OR
Back to Sibu and snoring my day off on my bed.
OR..
The other way round ... =)

Am I that bad.

I wonder how many days had passed.
Wonder when was that time.
But the one same question still linger inside my mind until today.

"Am I that bad?"
I am still looking for a definite answer.
How am I going to answer this very question.
Who is the question to ?
What's the matter?
Why are you asking this?
Who invovled?
What makes you asking from me ?
No clue at all.

Now I am wondering,
How if I am the one asking the question.
Oh,..
Am I that bad?
Then why ... ... ......... ..?
Anyone?