Saturday Night (18/10/2008)

I saw her today.
To be more precise, I saw her about an hour ago.
At at supermarket where I was about to buy some daily things for myself.
At the main door, before I went into it.
She smiled to me.
And I realized that was a smile which I have been longing after for so long time.
A smile that make me smile back from the bottom of my heart in the past.
And yet I was such a jerk that dont even know how to react.
I just walked by and keep on stealing the sight of her.
Am I really such a idiot ?
I just never thought that I would see her again.
In the building, I thought I was very sure of myself of what I want to buy but in the end, I left without purchasing a single thing.
My heart was jumping so fast and my mind was just a blank.
To be honest, I almost cried out, but I hold myself down and show no weakness in front of everyone.
I just found that....I really miss her a lot.
I hate myself for this but I was happy to be able to see her again.
I took a long route back home.
Everything about my life poped out in my mind.
I know, after so long time, I am just paralyzing myself in things I do everyday.
Online games, comics, Starbucks, ....
I was putting up a mask to show everyone that I was laughing outside.
In fact, tears are still flowing in the inside.
You just cant make a scar go away, dont you? Lol...
Almost every night before I close my eyes to sleep, I am thinking about, what should I do if I see her again.
Just never expect I really would see her again.
It's true, I am really really happy to see her.
If there is a chance, I really wanna see her again.
But I know not the opposite side.
At least, I know that's the thing I could do to not appear in front of her anymore.
I just cant deny that....
I still miss her ...so so much!!

Pictures Of Me~

First of all, I hate taking photo unless I'm camwhoring without anyone around and it will also only last for at most from 2 to 3 photos as well.
Why? Well, it's obviously that I never look good in the any photos.
That's one of the reasons why I hardly present myself in photo-type to public and not even in my friendster.
But since you are asking of a picture of me, JLun

This blog is for you!!

But, instead of giving you just only one of my photo, I will be giving you several of them! Lol~!

I care about other people opinion more than my own, so, Lun,

Be my judge and pick the best for me ya!!

Super bright face (taken in the care while I was waiting for the traffic light)



Super duper bright face - taken while I was driving (not the same day the 1st photo)
p/s : the car was still MOVING!!



Picture of me in the class - trying so hard to concentrate.
Taken to look at my own desperately trying to concentrate face.


Last picture - self-camwhoring picture. HAHAHAHA!!

Need Eye Mo??

I did it again! Lol~

I am dead, I am so dead.
I got class on this morning at 8.30am and yet I am still sitting here with my two wide opened eyes!!
*sigh* Something is very wrong with me.
Anyway, now, I am so into the two songs that my sis had just sent to me few hours ago - "We are one" and "Ready to love".
Both songs are slow and relaxing songs.
Of course liongteck love these 2 songs and even plan to burn it onto a CD someday later.
For those who want the songs, remember to ask from me on the MSN, sharing is caring and I always care. Hehe...
To be honest, I am quite down for today.
Nothing happen, it just came and attacked me suddenly. Lol~
Everyone is telling me life's wonderful.
So, I open my eyes and heart wide to see and feel how wonderful it is.
I tried to enjoy as much as I can but I just dont feel good if I burden my family just because of that reason.
It seems so meaningless.
Maybe I just feel a bit lonely here.
But I never want anyone to company me either.
I guess I am too stubborn on my own.
Haha~~
Better day for me when the sun rise!!
At least make me smile from the bottom of my heart for once more.

I was tagged!

More than a week days ago, I got tagged by JLun .
Sorry Lun, I was slacking back then.
Think of doing this after few days and I've regret in doing so.
These days or weeks I won't have any internet access because I had move to a new place. Hahaha..
And now I've got to steal the line from the Starbucks to do you tag! ^.^
Forgive me since I am so sincere in doing this. Lol~

~So, here are the tag thing~

Starting time:

• 2.55 am (see, so late at the starbuck!!)

Name:

• LiOnGtEck (with liong and teck stick together)

size:

• Erm..UK 9

What are you wearing right now?

• t-shirt with short pants

Where do you live?

• kuching and sibu.

Favorite Number/s

• should be 365, 300 and 730.

Favorite Drinks:

• Caramel coffee blended!

Favorite Months:

• Should be erm, May, August and December

Have You Ever......

Been in a bath tub:

• Sure la

Swam in the ocean:

• Yup. For few times.

Fallen asleep in school:

• SURE!! Almost my daily job when I was form 4.

Broken someone's heart:

• I was the one got broken =.="

Fell off your chair:

• Got, but it was a long time thing already.

Saved e-mails:

• Yeah, my F8 subjects, my tutor is using e-mail for our answers.

What is......

Your room like:

• In sibu one, ALWAYS tidy (because of my mum) but at Kuching one, hmm..not most of the time tidy ! LOL!

What's right beside you?

• Stuffs, a lot a lot of stuffs =.="

What is the last thing you ate?

• The Duck Rice from DA-LIGHT!

Ever Had......

Chicken pox:

• Sure, while I was still a kid. Terrible one and I still got marks and scar on my face.

Sore throat:

• Who doesn't wei!

Stitches:

• Yeap, right on my head, a big one.

Broken nose:

• nope

Do You......

Believe in love at first sight?

• Guess so..but it' s still kinda "fairy tale"

Like picnics:?

• SURE!! I like outdoor activities.

Who......

Who was the last person you danced with?

• I forgot. Should be few years ago..while I was still a scout in my school.

Who last made you smile?

• The Starbucks' staff. I need to smile and say Thank You right?

Who did you last yell at?

• Myself. I had gone crazy by the time, yelling alone while I was driving.

Final Questions......

Hate someone in your family?

• I never hate anyone in my family! SERIOUSLY!! They love me and I love them.

Diamond or pearl?

• Diamond, of course. It worth more money. Hehe

Are you the Eldest?
• No. I am the third in my brother and sisters.

Today did you......

Talk to someone you like?

• Nope.

Kiss anyone?

• No.

Get sick?

• Still healthy! Still need a long time for a coffin. But almost bored to death.

Talked to an ex:

• no

Miss someone:

• Almost everyday

Last person who......

You talked to on the phone?

• My lovely Mum.

Have a crush on someone:?

• No

What books are you reading right now?

• Demon and Angel (slacking for quite some times already).

Best feeling in the world:

• When I know I am loved.

Future kids names?

• never think of it.

Do you Sleep with stuffed animals?

•No.

What's under your bed?

• Just air. This question scares me. It's making me imagining things =.="

Favorite locations:

• HMmm... I wonder..

Danced a slow dance with someone you didn't even like?

•Nope, never

Who do you really hate?

• My tutors

Ever liked someone you didn't have a chance with?

•Sure. Now still.

You lonely right now?

• I am. TERRIBLY LONELY! Save me!

What time is it now?

• 3.23 am. The night is still very young. HOHOHO!

Lun, I DID IT! Wuahahaha...
But I got no one to tag.
Impossible to tag back you right ? right?
Hahaha ...