Campanion.

I've been running around the whole town looking for something.
Something that could kill my loneliness forever so that I wont ever to create the annoyance for other.
Something that is never busy and may given his or her full attention to you as long as you treat him or her nice.
Something like me, who needs attention all the time and never being ignored.
Something that is definitely never let my effort gone to waste and treating it as annoyance.
Something that understand you LOVE him or her.

That's the reason ..
I love dogs.
It may not talk like human do, but at least, that's the best companion I might ever had in my life.
At least, it doenst feel me annoying.

Hi , How are you...

This is me speaking ..
Does this surprise you a little?
Perhaps not, because it seems more like a disturbance.
Annoying little one. The poor little lonely one.

How I wish for only one day we are able to exchange our characters in life.
For you to experience my loneliness, my life struggling hard for something which is near but never able to reach for it.
For me to lead through your busy life until there is not even a single minute for the one you thought should care for awhile.

"Hi, how are you? It has been a while since we've talked and saw each other."
I've tried my best to shorten everything I felt these days into a sentence.
So, does this reach the speed you hoped for me to just stand a little times of yours?
I know I should already have to got used to the nights without. So, I'm sorry, I failed yours expectation.

It's been a tough day for me today after been through a several sleepless nights.
"Nite" ...It doesnt mean "I'm going to sleep now".
It just to show I aint going to give up just yet and on the other hand, it just a simple little sign that I havent lost you yet.

So, does all this mean I deserve a kiss from you or a "bye" that describe thousand means of departion from you .. ?

A steel through the heart

How should I start?
Hmmm...
Weird, I suppose to have lots of things to write but somehow.. I can't think of any idea to start.
Or I should say how am I going to write so that I won't be regret for the rest of my life.
Remember the thing I said about "I don't care about anything anymore" thing?
I found that it's really hard to achieve it.
Especially when you got to know there is someone you can't hurt.

I've been in days like hell for the past two weeks.
But when I took sometimes to think about it.. I can't really sure what makes me think like this.
And when the weeks ended, by the time I thought it is over, BANG! Something I saw makes me wanna put down my everything and leave this world..for good maybe.
I can't say what it's here but I really do feel the pierce in heart.
With the current situation, it's an obvious slap on my face telling me what to do.

Perhaps not everything you waited what you long for, even things you hope and work hard for may comes to you.
Not every flower you watered may bloom in the end.

Waiting ain't easy, especially when there's thing you miss for so much but the thing won't come to you
like when you start to dig, in the end you realized the treasure have already been snatched away by someone else leaving the only box.

In Standby Only

The Thirtieth of March.
I realised that I need to learn how to always be in standby mode only.
Pretend to never exist at where she and she can see me.
It doesnt matter if I need someone.
It only matter if someone needs me.
It's like when you've failed the interview,
The answer you may got is like.. "Please dont call us, we will call you".
LOL! It's funny to think that I've got myself into a comedy life.
It's even funnier when I realise, I cant help myself for getting into it.

I don't know

I don't know what to say.
It is kind of confusing.
Maybe I shouldn't have come to Starbucks here.
Maybe I should just stay in my own room, staying offline.
Maybe just maybe.
...
Shouldn't have ask for more.
Liongteck is just.., really doesn't know :-)