From next on, this blog site will be requiring you guys to input password in order to read the content.
In short, this means that this is going to be a private blog.
Thanks to those who always support by reading the "trashes" I wrote in the past.
Thousands apologies as I always lazy updating it.
Anyway, there's a reason behind for me to do this.
I just dont want to create any misunderstanding anymore.
Ok, I know this blog is the only place, the only device for me to let her acknowlegde something bout me.
But I dont think I have any other choice.
For her,
I wont stop writing anything here..
But I will stop everyone , I mean EVERYONE from reading this ..
Bye guys..
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Love Every 10th 20th and 30th of the months
Like what I've written as title above, I LOVE EVERY 10th, 20th and 30th of the month!!
Why? Because liongteck is going to be paid on these days every month.
If you are asking either I have a job already or what, the answer is NO!
No no no, I am still a unemployed full time student.
It's just that last month, I made a plan on how am I going to spend the limited money deliver by my Mum to me so that, I will have extra to save for a vacation and enough for me to spend whenever I am going back.
LOL!! I won't ask for a single cent from my mum if I am back home, so, I can only depend on how am I going to spend the money here.
You are thinking too much if you think that I am going to expose how much my Mum deliver me each month. LOL!!!
Back to the topic...
Ok, what I did is, deduct the rental, streamyx bill, handphone bill, car fuel and some savings then leftover will be for my food and entertainment.
So, I divide the times for me to withdraw the money from ATM into 3 parts in each month which fall on every 10th , 20th and 30th. XD
It's not much, but if I try not to be so waste, save a little , there might still be some left for the entertainment which I kinda made it for the last 10 days. WUAHAHAHAHA! ** proud proud**
Guess what?! Today is the 10th of September, which mean tomorrow I there will be more money is going to be available in my wallet!! HAHA!
I never like it when my wallet is empty ( who does?? )
HO Ho Ho~
Anyway, wish me good luck to have enough money to pay for my own future traveling expenses as fast as possible!!
=========================================================
Out of the topic..
I had a dream last night which I wanna make it a part of my memories.
It's a very very weird dream and the weirdest thing is I dont find it's weird when I was in the dream. (ok, bullshit)
I kinda like it, I dont know why.
It started with me in my old house..
Like there is some kind of singing competition there and I part of the member.
There are pf two me.
I mean yeah, two , dua, lian ge, me, whose one of them is ME (obviously) and another one is the younger me.
Anyway, it's like a mass singing competition, I didnt sing, but the younger me sang a little and it ended just like this ( I mean the competition not the dream)
I dont really remember what happened next .. till..
I found out that me and her ( yes, she is inside and that's the part I never want to forget) and two other guys are the person who leave the home late.
It's like we try to be as hurry as we can to leave that place because it seems like there is something chasing for us.
Just as we are about the leave the place, she and I automatically hold hands ^^.
I mean automatically!!
At the time we both know we are already not lovers but we hold hands like there is nothing happened.
Till after we left the place, we just noticed that we are holding hands but, we didnt let go of each other till we reach her house ( YES, we ran to her house, because I saw her mum and dad there = =")
I hugged her for awhile but she didnt resist.
She resisted a little when I try to kiss her since her mum was just behind us.
The next thing I can remember is that, we know we were tired and we were asked to go to have a sleep.
Guys were asked to sleep outside the house and the girls to sleep inside with her families.
It's very very hard to describe the situation.
But in the end, I know that I left.
Before that, I tried to let her know that I am leaving but she pretend that she didnt see my signal and pretend to be asleep (Don't ask me why, I just know, there is never logic description in most of my dream)
It's sad but I feel quite happy to think that I am able to hold her hands once again, hugging her and even kissed her.
What I feel that time was, it's worth to have all these in exchange for my leaving.
So, I just walked out the house ...
This time, with the smile on my face..
Then I woke up by the damn shit alarm.
I know what I've written here about my dream is very confusing but you know, it's never easy to describe the dream as accurate as we can.
I tried my best anyway.
I just want the dream to be memorized. :-D
Why? Because liongteck is going to be paid on these days every month.
If you are asking either I have a job already or what, the answer is NO!
No no no, I am still a unemployed full time student.
It's just that last month, I made a plan on how am I going to spend the limited money deliver by my Mum to me so that, I will have extra to save for a vacation and enough for me to spend whenever I am going back.
LOL!! I won't ask for a single cent from my mum if I am back home, so, I can only depend on how am I going to spend the money here.
You are thinking too much if you think that I am going to expose how much my Mum deliver me each month. LOL!!!
Back to the topic...
Ok, what I did is, deduct the rental, streamyx bill, handphone bill, car fuel and some savings then leftover will be for my food and entertainment.
So, I divide the times for me to withdraw the money from ATM into 3 parts in each month which fall on every 10th , 20th and 30th. XD
It's not much, but if I try not to be so waste, save a little , there might still be some left for the entertainment which I kinda made it for the last 10 days. WUAHAHAHAHA! ** proud proud**
Guess what?! Today is the 10th of September, which mean tomorrow I there will be more money is going to be available in my wallet!! HAHA!
I never like it when my wallet is empty ( who does?? )
HO Ho Ho~
Anyway, wish me good luck to have enough money to pay for my own future traveling expenses as fast as possible!!
=========================================================
Out of the topic..
I had a dream last night which I wanna make it a part of my memories.
It's a very very weird dream and the weirdest thing is I dont find it's weird when I was in the dream. (ok, bullshit)
I kinda like it, I dont know why.
It started with me in my old house..
Like there is some kind of singing competition there and I part of the member.
There are pf two me.
I mean yeah, two , dua, lian ge, me, whose one of them is ME (obviously) and another one is the younger me.
Anyway, it's like a mass singing competition, I didnt sing, but the younger me sang a little and it ended just like this ( I mean the competition not the dream)
I dont really remember what happened next .. till..
I found out that me and her ( yes, she is inside and that's the part I never want to forget) and two other guys are the person who leave the home late.
It's like we try to be as hurry as we can to leave that place because it seems like there is something chasing for us.
Just as we are about the leave the place, she and I automatically hold hands ^^.
I mean automatically!!
At the time we both know we are already not lovers but we hold hands like there is nothing happened.
Till after we left the place, we just noticed that we are holding hands but, we didnt let go of each other till we reach her house ( YES, we ran to her house, because I saw her mum and dad there = =")
I hugged her for awhile but she didnt resist.
She resisted a little when I try to kiss her since her mum was just behind us.
The next thing I can remember is that, we know we were tired and we were asked to go to have a sleep.
Guys were asked to sleep outside the house and the girls to sleep inside with her families.
It's very very hard to describe the situation.
But in the end, I know that I left.
Before that, I tried to let her know that I am leaving but she pretend that she didnt see my signal and pretend to be asleep (Don't ask me why, I just know, there is never logic description in most of my dream)
It's sad but I feel quite happy to think that I am able to hold her hands once again, hugging her and even kissed her.
What I feel that time was, it's worth to have all these in exchange for my leaving.
So, I just walked out the house ...
This time, with the smile on my face..
Then I woke up by the damn shit alarm.
I know what I've written here about my dream is very confusing but you know, it's never easy to describe the dream as accurate as we can.
I tried my best anyway.
I just want the dream to be memorized. :-D
Sunday, September 6, 2009
That's the feeling
Sometimes, do you ever feel that you are back to when you are still a child?
The child I mean here is like when you are still in primary school or in secondary level.
I mean you are in a kind of situation that makes you feel or remind you of many years ago.
LOL!
It's kind of nostalgic~
It feels weird but comfortable.
It bring back a lot of memories years back then.
Yea, this is what I feel now. I mean now. HAHAHA!
I am listening to the AiFM through online right now.
I dont know what's the name of the song in the air now but it's kind of slow song that makes you feel so relax.
Plus the cool air after heavy rain just now,
Remind me of when I was still in primary school.
Woke up around 6am everyday preparing for the school.
Then my mum would always turn the radio on while helping me and my sisters for the preparation.
If I didnt remember wrongly, it was the station called "The 5th station (DI WU TAI)" that my mum always love to listen to.
That time, I am never insterest in listening to any songs.
So, I never know most the song that been air-ed, but, somehow the songs air-ed are always the slow songs and made you feel kinda relax by listening to them.
That's what I feel right now. LOL!!!!
Ow OW OW OW!!!
How I hope I could turn the time back to when I was still in primary school.
NO worry, no bad memories, no sadness at all.
Parents are always there for you whenever you need something.
Never know what's the love stuff that turn your life going up side down.
What's better than the life of a child who is shower with loves right?
The child I mean here is like when you are still in primary school or in secondary level.
I mean you are in a kind of situation that makes you feel or remind you of many years ago.
LOL!
It's kind of nostalgic~
It feels weird but comfortable.
It bring back a lot of memories years back then.
Yea, this is what I feel now. I mean now. HAHAHA!
I am listening to the AiFM through online right now.
I dont know what's the name of the song in the air now but it's kind of slow song that makes you feel so relax.
Plus the cool air after heavy rain just now,
Remind me of when I was still in primary school.
Woke up around 6am everyday preparing for the school.
Then my mum would always turn the radio on while helping me and my sisters for the preparation.
If I didnt remember wrongly, it was the station called "The 5th station (DI WU TAI)" that my mum always love to listen to.
That time, I am never insterest in listening to any songs.
So, I never know most the song that been air-ed, but, somehow the songs air-ed are always the slow songs and made you feel kinda relax by listening to them.
That's what I feel right now. LOL!!!!
Ow OW OW OW!!!
How I hope I could turn the time back to when I was still in primary school.
NO worry, no bad memories, no sadness at all.
Parents are always there for you whenever you need something.
Never know what's the love stuff that turn your life going up side down.
What's better than the life of a child who is shower with loves right?
Asking for a change
Ow, how I wish I could proudly say, "liongteck is gonna start to change his life!!"
Okay, I did thought of it.
Yea, if you gonna ask, do I even ever make a first step about this, the answer will be a big YES!
YES I DID!!
I shuted down my friendster and facebook.
I played the songs I sealed long time ago and listened to it like the normal other songs.
I tried to erase everything off from my mind.
I smiled everyday right after I wake up in the morning.
I keep on eat and eat and eat, so that I am able to go to sleep right after I lie down onto my bed before my mind start playing tricks with me.
I blocked and deleted things in the Hotmail.
So fucking shit that none of those things worked even a little.
Okay, I know I am EMO-ing again and this going to be another emo post.
HAH! Now I know I only write when I am in terrible mode.
I forgot when I did it, it be should about 2 weeks ago, I shuted down my friendster and facebook.
Reason?? I dont like to have them anymore :-D
.......... .... ... .. . . .. . . . . . . ..
Okay fine, the reason is always the same when I made a big decision.
Who the hell will go and stop doing the same thing which almost like a habit suddenly when he or she just feel dont like it.
I gotta admit that there is a lot of beautiful memories in that stuff especially the Friendster.
I can still remember the reason why I start into this thing.
That day when I cant wait to back from the school to open up the messages inside it.
The comments and the messages, I have to say it's bit pain in my heart when I shuted it down.
But hey, I gotta do something, right?
How I wish I have the flashy thingy in the "Men In Back" movie.
One flash, you forgot everything.
The best thing about that is, you can even alter your memories.
By then I would ask someone to flash it onto me, erase my 6 to 7 years memories and re-write it with happy stories.
Life would be so wonderful by then.
At least, I could forgot who I've met in my life....
You know, it's hard when sometimes sad keep haunting your mind. LOL!
Sigh...
Sometimes, I feel like I might one of the loneliest person in this world.
You might not able to see it from the outside, but if only I could get you inside of me, all you could see is the absolute darkness.
Sometimes, I feel that I am wrong to think that what all girls always want is love. In fact, what they want is a guy who doesn't make them cry.
Sometimes, I feel like I might be the ugliest and also the worst guy on earth. I must've done something that makes you leave me.
Sometimes, I hope I could ask for a hug or a kiss from you since it's impossible for me to ask for another chance anymore.
Sometimes, there is a little hope in my heart that you could see all what I've written in here. It's not to make you feel guilty but to let you know that, my heart is always empty since the day you left.
If it's in the past, you might get annoyed after reading everything I've written in here.
You never like me to write any emo post at all, not even one. HAHA
Even though now you are far away from me, I wonder the reason why I am still writing all these, is you as well.
Okay, I did thought of it.
Yea, if you gonna ask, do I even ever make a first step about this, the answer will be a big YES!
YES I DID!!
I shuted down my friendster and facebook.
I played the songs I sealed long time ago and listened to it like the normal other songs.
I tried to erase everything off from my mind.
I smiled everyday right after I wake up in the morning.
I keep on eat and eat and eat, so that I am able to go to sleep right after I lie down onto my bed before my mind start playing tricks with me.
I blocked and deleted things in the Hotmail.
So fucking shit that none of those things worked even a little.
Okay, I know I am EMO-ing again and this going to be another emo post.
HAH! Now I know I only write when I am in terrible mode.
I forgot when I did it, it be should about 2 weeks ago, I shuted down my friendster and facebook.
Reason?? I dont like to have them anymore :-D
.......... .... ... .. . . .. . . . . . . ..
Okay fine, the reason is always the same when I made a big decision.
Who the hell will go and stop doing the same thing which almost like a habit suddenly when he or she just feel dont like it.
I gotta admit that there is a lot of beautiful memories in that stuff especially the Friendster.
I can still remember the reason why I start into this thing.
That day when I cant wait to back from the school to open up the messages inside it.
The comments and the messages, I have to say it's bit pain in my heart when I shuted it down.
But hey, I gotta do something, right?
How I wish I have the flashy thingy in the "Men In Back" movie.
One flash, you forgot everything.
The best thing about that is, you can even alter your memories.
By then I would ask someone to flash it onto me, erase my 6 to 7 years memories and re-write it with happy stories.
Life would be so wonderful by then.
At least, I could forgot who I've met in my life....
You know, it's hard when sometimes sad keep haunting your mind. LOL!
Sigh...
Sometimes, I feel like I might one of the loneliest person in this world.
You might not able to see it from the outside, but if only I could get you inside of me, all you could see is the absolute darkness.
Sometimes, I feel that I am wrong to think that what all girls always want is love. In fact, what they want is a guy who doesn't make them cry.
Sometimes, I feel like I might be the ugliest and also the worst guy on earth. I must've done something that makes you leave me.
Sometimes, I hope I could ask for a hug or a kiss from you since it's impossible for me to ask for another chance anymore.
Sometimes, there is a little hope in my heart that you could see all what I've written in here. It's not to make you feel guilty but to let you know that, my heart is always empty since the day you left.
If it's in the past, you might get annoyed after reading everything I've written in here.
You never like me to write any emo post at all, not even one. HAHA
Even though now you are far away from me, I wonder the reason why I am still writing all these, is you as well.
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