不是我不想听

Wonder why I just couldn't fall into sleep.
I was like a pig, turning here and there in my bed, finding the comfortable position to force myself into sleep.
The only different was, I am not in my dream like the pigs always do.
*sigh*
I guess the Sand Man isn't coming to find me tonight to pour his magical sleepy sand into my eyes.

I just lied there and pretend that I was sleeping...
When suddenly, I started to hum songs.
I always find mysellf a trouble every time I couldnt fall asleep.
And yes, this time, I still. LOL!
No No, I am not humming that particular song purposely.
It was just, erm..I dont know why, it just started like that.
And by the time when I am so into humming that song, my mind began to work.
I was thinking,
Why this song?
Because you know, it's a very old song.
Plus, when I was still a kid, probably around kindergarden or primary 1, I am scared of this song because the singer of this song passed away at the time, and my two freaking sisters love to use this song to scare me whenever my parents are not around.

But then, I just realised..
It was also the first song, I heard from her..
Yue Lian Dai Biao Wo De Xin ('the moon represents my heart' by Theresa Teng)
Well, not to me of course.
It was when I attended his brother's wedding dinner with my father,
She sang this song for her brother and sister-in-law.
I forgot when it was, but I remember, that time, we have not talk a single word to each other yet.
And we only started to chat to each other after a few years later. =)
Honestly telling you all, I was already attracted by her at the time.
And I thought it was just a so called kid's love, so I never try to let it bother me at the time.
But somehow, I've never forgotten about her yet.
Not till now.

She has a nicest voice I've ever heard.
She loves to sing,
And she plays piano so well.
Too bad, I wouldnt have a future with her singing and playing piano under one roof.

Yea, by the time all these thing glanced through my mind, I started to emo again.
I woke up, and on my laptop.
I opened a folder which I've never open for such a long time.
Songs..
I always know I've sealed up the songs that would remind me of her.
It's always there, just, I never go and open it.
And I thought after a few months or years passed by,
Someday later, I can enjoy the beautiness of these songs again.

不是我不想听,
只是怕听了会想起你..