Tuesday, November 29, 2011

... Dahh-h?

"To be or not to be, that's the question."

"Keep your friends close, keep your enemies closer."

"E=mc2"

bla bla bla bla bla...

Just wasting some time here while waiting for my friends asking me out for a dinner.
It has really been a long time since I typed a word here.
Well, the feeling is still great with those moving fingers on the keyboards pressing on the buttons creating those sounds.
Only that this time, I just can't bluntly type any words in mind :P

I am exhausted but pretty much satisfied.
The exam is just a week far from now and I am still busy with my current audit work.
But at least all the extra time has been filled up, in a good way :D.
Time of freedom is definitely restricted, which mean lesser or almost no time to play since I have to juggle from work to study :(
But at least, none are wasted like before.

Human will learn to appreciate when things get lesser or gone.
That's what I am experience right now.
I've been trying to squeeze as much time as I could since I start to work.
As you know, for work, studies, rest and even playing :D.
Yes, playing. I am not sure if I've ever mentioned in here before, one my principle would be, if you worked hard, then played hard! haha!
Dont feel like missing out any fun event with my friends and recently I am craze for badminton.
I am originally a sportsman, what I mean is a guy who loves to sport and badminton is one of my favourite.

Life is meant to be enjoyed - Love the statement and you should too.
Experience what you hate, know what you love, enjoy what you live, then forget what you hate :)

Phone rings! It's time to fill up my stomach.
Order me a horse! =X

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

An urge to write

"Sometimes know nothing is better than know everything"
That statement seems to be very popular among my friend's lists in the Facebook these days.
Old words, old fact, old knowledge.
But I gotta admit that I do agree with this.
Sometimes,.. just sometimes.

Human's curiosity is not meant to be underestimated.
Like how the Eve was cheated by the Evil to eat the apple on the tree then knowing the shamefulness in the world.
Everything was just out of the curiosity.
Especially if you care.. it hurts.

ARhhhh! Anyway, year 2011 is going to be over.
I gonna do something for myself :)
A big plan for turning everything around in the year 2012.
It's going to be a new Liongteck! HAH!!!!

Sunday, August 28, 2011

RE: To one of the many stars

I think I found a person who is even more difficult to be served.
If it's because of the clashing of opinions or thought then I have got nothing to say but who decide that?
I would say, no, there's nothing wrong in expressing how you feel.
You may feel that you are being see-through by other people or feel offended but that's your point of view.
How bout others??

There are countless type of people in the world.
I actually learnt that some people are really willing to help without any payback.
Some people do really care about how the people around him or her feel regarding their act.
You may have offended them for not telling them that they may have hurt your feeling until they found out someday later after done the same thing for many times.
What do you think may happen in the end? - What kind of situation you may put them in?
Worst still , with your accumulated hate and anger, you may have leave him or her for a reason that you yourself may not even know how to tell.
I tell you, you don't know how and I bet you dont even know yourself in the end too.

In my thought, why not? just be straight and tell them. If they care, you know what to do. If no, I don't think you wont be in any loss as well.
For yours and theirs own sake.

If you guys think I am talking about me, think again.
I have a lot of stories on my own but I've decided to lock them out from here a long time.
Like what my cousin had told me once, "Mind your own business".
You can't serve everyone in the world, how the others think that their own business.
I do care how the others think of me too but I know I am changing.
There's always a theory on how you wanna live. That's called the science of life.
I know you don't like to burden somebody else like I do.
For me, I categorised people around me.
Families, true friends, friends and by-passer.

Who doesn't want to be loved?
Sometimes I may hold back on my true friends and definitely the friends and the by-passers but never on families.
I always want them to dig into me and let them know that I want to be loved and I love them as well.

Oh, btw, for the note, I always treat my love one as a part of me and that would means family :)

Friday, June 17, 2011

First of all, yeah~ I am back to my own hometown already.
Seriously speaking, I dont feel as excited as I thought I should be.
Too many things happened around me in the past few months.
Too many things need to be handled and accepted and I expect more coming in the future.

I think if it's not because of the tiredness, i might have just lost the sense of the excitement already :)
Since the day I'm back here, I've been trying very hard to make myself happy.
I did everything I could, I avoid everything I should.
No matter how hard I forced a smile on my face, it just doesnt feel right.

That's the reason when I don't update my blog at all :)
Because since when I've decided to come back here, there is a little determination of mine said that maybe I shouldnt let the others see how weak I am anymore.
Maybe I should not write anything sad here anymore.
It doesn't matter if a zero wears a hero's costume, what does matter is no one can see what is inside.
But I'm a Gemini, what else can I say?
When things get unbearable, I still choose to talk to the machine.

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

X-MEN:First Class

Has any of you watched this yet?

For God sake, go and watch this.
This is awesome!!!
If I have 3 thumbs, I definitely would raise 3 of them up!!

X-MEN : First Class.
Like how the movie is named, it's about the first class or the first generation of the X-Men.
Don't understand? How bout this, it's about when the physic man , Professor X and the super villain magnet man, Magneto when they were still teenager?
That's when the Professor X(Charles Xavier) and Magneto(Erik Lehnsherr) started to gather every mutants in the world and work together to prevent the Nuclear War.
That's before the Magneto went bad and the Professor X went bald =X. Hehe~
You know what I think? I think the real villain are the human in there. Agree?

I watched the movie last Saturday.
It's far far far far FARRR better than I expected.
You see, there is one of my friend think that the movie wont be any good since it was about the past and bla bla bla ..
At first I don't think like he did, but you know in the end, more or less you will get affected by your friend's words.
So honestly, part of my mind told me that, maybe I can see just get myself a DVD and watch it at home instead of wasting the money in the cinema.
Tell you what, LUCKILY I DID NOT DO SO!! Phew, I am about to miss one wonderful date with an awesome movie in the cinema ok??!!

I swear I will never make a pass on any Marvel movie ever again!!
I love those super heroes. I mean who doesn't??
Tell me, you never think of how nice it would be if you have those super powers?

I love every hero in the Marvel.
Spiderman, Batman, Superman, Ironman, The Incredible Hulk and etc.
Does anyone still remember The Flash? The fastest hero among them? LOL.

The Green Lantern will be released in this month!! And the Captain America will be on the coming July.
Who is going with me??!! You buy me the ticket and I can get you popcorn. :P

Monday, June 6, 2011

Happy Duan Wu Jie

Yeap~ Today is the actual day of the Duan Wu Jie which I called Zhong Zhi Jie ( aka Dumpling Day if direct translated from the Chinese).
I wonder what is it called in English, Dragon Boat Festival perhaps? I'm not sure. LOL!!
Anyway, let's stick to the Dumpling Day then. :P

Like how it is called, today is the day we Chinese eat dumpling or know as zhong zhi in Chinese.

Taken from the Google


This is how the inside looks like (taken from the Google)

Ask me if I like it? Hmmm, I would say yes and no. HAHA!!
Why? When I was a kid, I had some of them which the taste were so superb that still making me drop my saliva even by think of it.
However, after that I don't think I had any which is as nice as that one again.
Well, like how some people said, don't ever try to sit in a Mercedes cause you won't like to drive your own Perodua Kenari again. Now, got what I mean ?
I've tasted the best dumpling in the world before, so I wont say any other dumplings are good if the taste is not comparable to the one I had. :P
But of course I still had some for the past years because I believe you have to do what should we do in order to celebrate the occasion. :D
Because it makes me feel that I am a part of the celebration.
Like new clothes and firecrakers for the Chinese New Year, so, dumplings for the Dumpling days ^^.

Oh ya, if I am not mistaken, some places celebrate the day by organizing the dragon boat racing.

Taken from the Google

I've never seen any before but honestly to tell you guys, I don't really have any interest in it. = /
If my memory serves me right, I think when I was still a kid there was once or maybe few times the racing were organized in my hometown, Sibu.
I didn't get to see any of them since there were to many people were watching. LOL!

I was told by my sis that, the Singaporean celebrate the day by throwing the dumpling into the river.
Wanna know why? Let me tell you.
There was once a person called Qu Yuan from China who was wrongly accused of being a traitor who had betrayed his country.
Then he committed suicide by jumping into the deep river to prove his own innocence.
In order to prevent the fishes in the river to eat away the corpse, the villagers throw the dumplings into the river in hoping that the fishes would eat the dumpling instead.
And the tradition continued till this day in some places :).
He must be really a kind person eh?
I was told the story by someone I forgot who but I got the name by Googling it ( now you see how useful is the Google) , HEHE!

Anyway, I don't think I will be having any dumpling this year :(.
I am not going back to be reunited with my families for today.
BECAUSE I STILL HAVE AN EXAM TO ATTEND ON THIS NOON!!Arghh! Pressure! pressure whenever I think about this.
Don't ask me how is my revision already and obviously I am taking a short break from it to write something about the day.

I think it's time :(, I can already hear the bells are ringing like reminding me that the break is over. SADDD!!!
Anyway, Happy Duan Wu Jie guys and girls :)
Have a happy one, my families, beloved friends and of course you too, whoever are reading my this.
Love you, Baby Tiong.

Saturday, May 28, 2011

Tears from my heart.

Stick by stick, packs by packs.
I start to wonder why am I inhaling this much nicotine these days.
I mean more than the normal days do. Much more.
I thought I've decided to quit smoking this year or maybe even reduce the amount of taking it.
Sigh.
I don't feel nicer by smoking this much, but why?
I guess I am just trying to keep myself busy and trying to keep myself awake.
I am exhausted, very very tired. But I really don't feel like sleeping at all.
It makes me think a lot.

Wonder when it started.
I mean when I am afraid of being alone.
People around me is leaving one by one.
Am I that bad? ...

Whenever they parted with me, my mood will be dropped to the lowest point.
Most of the time I almost burst myself into tears.
I am all alone again, that's what I think.

I seriously need a person company me by my side.
At least talk to me.
I am willing to put on the mask and pretend to laugh at your joke no matter how cold it is.
I think that's the reason why I've been trying very hard to keep my friend by my side all the time.

I just got back from the supper.
As soon as I know my friends had finished their exam, I asked them to do something together.
Trying hard to please them.
Feels like begging them not to not leave me alone.
I am sorry for keeping you guys till so late at night.

Ignorance is one of the thing I hate the most in this world.
At least some responses are good.
At least scold me, say you hate me and say you wanna end all these crap.
It is far better than let me just hanging on the cliff hoping someday later you may come back and pull me up again.
What do you want me to do then ?????
You never know how cruel it is to me.
Enough is enough , eh? Does that mean you had enough of me?
At least explain it to me.. thoroughly!!!

Can't you see the reason behind all the messages that I've sent to you?
I know I told you don't have to reply me, but you really think I meant it?
Can't you see I really need you right now ?
Stop being that selfish, can you?
Does that mean whatever you've told me in the past are just lie?
Just to please me for awhile.... Sweet talk?

What do you want from me???!!!!!!
I can't get it at all.
For when I thought I can get over with you, you came back and leave me alone once again.
Do you know what have I been through just to fill up the hole you left in my heart?
How much I had suffered just to gain myself a little bit of confidence.
You came, and took everything away from me ... again.

I love you!! Yes, I still do.
But you don't have to exploit that love.
You really don't have to come back to me just because you think you will totally lose me.
You got yours happiness, but what about me?
Can't you just let me had some on my own as well?
At least me taste that happiness for a little longer.

I hate you, Yes , I am starting to.
I hate you when things get bad , you choose to run away , leave me alone and choose to ignore me.
I hate you know that how I afraid I am to the alone and yet you don't care for me at all.
I hate you ! I HATE YOU!!!
Damn!!

Seriously, what do you want me to do...
I really can't think of anything right now.
Why don't you just kill me.
End my life.
It least I know it's better than hurt me again and again.

I want you to be happy.
But I don't have to courage to bless you that.
You never how hurt it is to send your own love away to others.
You never know how many I did that just because I know you are in love with the others.
I feels like cutting my own meat down.

I want you to be happy.
But please, don't let me know how happy you are now.
At least I won't be able to think how much you hate me, want to ignore me and don't want to care for me anymore.

Friday, May 20, 2011

Arghhhh!!

It has been a really long time since I really need to say whatever is piled up in my heart.
Since I can't find a person to talk to and no place for me to shout, I am thinking maybe I can just come back here and type them all out.

No.... It's not because I have already forgotten the existence of my own blog.
Just that, I am trying to learn how to deal with everything myself.
Trying very hard to cope with the fact of "what I dont feel very happy with but it's not ethically wrong".

YA!!!
The source of the problem seems to be still from me myself. :)

When I was still small, I always think that the partner that you choose for your life is one of the most special person in your life.
Yup, SPECIAL!
When I say special, to me, it means one-of-a-kind, important, the one you care very much, different from the others in a good way of course and others.
However, loving her makes me doubt my own definition of the word "special".

Maybe different people has different way to define it, I dont know.
But to me, her "special" doesn't differ too much from the "normal" especially when we are far apart.

Do my words get into her ears and mind?
Are they important?
Or... maybe they were just pretty normal things for her.

Probably I am special to her but not that important.
If she feel tired about us, she can just leave which has become one of the greatest threat for me to keep on moving backward and let her to do whatever she want and yet, I am not allow to be unhappy about it.

She gave me the permission to ask about everything but ... How am I going to ask? and.. does that even make any difference if I asked ?

However, from the other way point of view, maybe it's just because of my own jealousy.
I get jealous really easy and haih... I try not to show it in front of her.

Our love started from the internet chating.
And that makes me think a lot whenever she chat and jokes with the other guys for a long time.
Don't even say when she willingly gave her own pic to the other guy to edit for her.

There is always questions in my mind that I dont really dare to ask her.
And yet she really hate me to be not happy about it.
So, other than hide my own feeling .. anyone has other suggestion on how am I going to deal with it.
I am sure it'll makes her very sad if I tell this straight in her face.

It's never her fault.
She know I dont like it and she did tried to change for me too which makes me really glad that she did.
She does really care for me sometimes and it really did warm my heart up.
Maybe that's her.
For unknowingly did things I dont really like and still doesnt realise them.
For love to make a lot of friends regardless they are guys or girls and become the center of attraction in them.
For treating her friends very nice, maybe way too nice enough to create any misunderstanding.
For not realise that it is an act of seducing instead of normal way to treat a friend.

Honestly, sometimes I really do want to just let her go.
Grant her her's absolute freedom.
For me never to care anymore.

But I know it's my heart..
Has always been my heart ..
Tells me , it's her..
Still her.

That's the reason for me to still hold onto it as long as there is still the tiniest chance of hope exist.

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Zerolise.

From a hero to a zero.
It's not that hard.
It only takes few days time and a woman you love :).
And the pain in your heart.




曲: 周杰倫
Qu: Zhou Jie Lun
Music: Jay Chou

詞:方文山
Ci: Fang Wen Shan
Lyrics: Vincent Fang

Translation: wackycashew – www.jay-chou.net

斷了的弦 再怎麼連
duan le de xuan zai zen me lian
A broken string, how can it be reconnected?

我的感覺 妳已聽不見
wo de gan jue ni yi ting bu jian
My feelings, you already cannot hear

妳的轉變 像斷掉的線
ni de zhuan bian xiang duan diao de xian
Your changes are like a string that’s been broken

再怎麼接 音都不對
zai zen me jie yin dou bu dui
No matter how I adjust, the sound won’t be right

妳的改變 我能夠分辨
ni de gai bian wo neng gou fen bian
Your changes, I have the ability to distinguish

Verse

我沉默 妳的話也不多
wo chen mo ni de hua ye bu duo
I’m silent, you don’t have much to say either

我們之間少了什麼 不說
wo men zhi jian shao le shen me bu shuo
Between us, what are we missing? Let’s not say

哎喲 微笑後 表情終於有點難過
ai yo wei xiao hou biao qing zhong yu you dian nan guo
Aiyo…After smiling, my expression finally has a bit of sadness

握著妳的手
wo zhe ni de shou
Holding your hand

問妳決定了再走
wen ni jue ding le zai zou
Asked you for your final decision before I left

我突然釋懷的笑
wo tu ran shi huai de xiao
I suddenly laughed with a relieved heart

笑聲盤旋半山腰
xiao sheng pan xuan ban shan yao
The laughter circled around the middle of a mountain

隨風在飄搖啊搖
sui feng zai piao yao a yao
Floated with the wind, swaying

來到妳的面前繞
lai dao ni de mian qian rao
Arrived before you, pacing back and forth

妳淚水往下的掉
ni lei shui wang xia de diao
Your tears streamed down

說會記住我的好
shuo hui ji zhu wo de hao
Saying that you will remember my goodness

我也彎起了嘴角 笑
wo ye wan qi le zui jiao xiao
I also curled up the corners of my mouth, smiling

*妳的美 已經給了誰
ni de mei yi jing gei le shui
Your beauty has already been given to whom?

追了又追 我要不回
zhui le you zhui wo yao bu hui
Chasing and chasing again, I can’t get it back

我了解 離開樹的葉
wo liao jie li kai shu de ye
I understand that the leaves that have left the trees

屬於地上的世界 凋謝
shu yu di shang de shi jie diao xie
Belong to the world of the ground, withering

Chorus

斷了的弦 再彈一遍
duan le de xuan zai tan yi bian
A broken string, playing once more

我的世界 妳不在裡面
wo de shi jie ni bu zai li mian
My world, you’re not in it

我的指尖 已經彈出繭
wo de zhi jian yi jing tan chu jian
My fingertips have already become calloused from the playing

還是無法 留妳在我身邊
hai shi wu fa liu ni zai wo shen bian
But still there’s no way for me to keep you by my side

斷了的弦 再怎麼連
duan le de xuan zai zen me lian
A broken string, how can it be reconnected

我的感覺 妳已聽不見
wo de gan jue ni yi ting bu jian
My feelings, you already cannot hear

妳的轉變 像斷掉的線
ni de zhuan bian xiang duan le de xian
Your changes are like a string that’s been broken

再怎麼接 音都不對
zai zen me jie yin dou bu dui
No matter how I adjust, the sound won’t be right

妳的改變 我能夠分辨
ni de gai bian wo neng gou fen bian
Your changes, I have the ability to distinguish